ABSO. LUTELY

I think it was a good decision to observe the majority of semi-special holidays on Mondays. Makes people want to kill themselves a little less. America sleeps in, and the streets are clear of road rage. Free of another day wasted sitting in front of the computer, pretending to work. Consider Sunday nights less of a countdown to another week of monotony with Monday holidays.

This weekend was full of dreams that I actively enjoyed being in. My sleep was simply impeccable.

I got promoted from set PA to 2nd AD some time in the morning before the sun even came out. I never spent so much time with strangers, working alongside one another like we know each other's mom's and shit.

Thought I'd humanize and write about my normal life in vague statements so that you could get an idea as to where I'm at, but not enough to sink my battleship.

ASSHOLES

We think we know everything from day one. We think we can be the best we can be, fall in love with the person who will do the same for longer than forever, get the job we’re destined for (and be good at it), and wrap up the story of our lives at the age of early twenty-something.

Then it happens.

It messes up. It gets knocked off course. We get into arguments with ourselves as we struggle to get the things we want while ensuring that we will always have what we need. Some of us confuse our impulsive desires with our practical necessities. The fine line between good and bad get a little bit thicker, until the line is no longer a line but instead a place.

And in this place – the place where all us twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, ongoing something people wander – lies our justifications for all the things we have done and all the lives that we have affected. We call ourselves good people, but quite honestly, we have all done our share of pissing people the fuck off.

We are assholes with an explanation. That’s who we are. It’s what we do. We are the assholes, and we spend our entire lives explaining why. Isn’t that it? Lest we can be the ones who acknowledge this to stay grounded, but still try to become better people.