DYLAN / DYLLAN / DILLON

"Hi, come on in." The voice came from inside the conference room.

The office assistant held the tall glass door open for me. I scurried through, trying to make eye contact to thank him, but failed miserably. Instead, I kept my head down and smiled at the warm, grey wood floors.

Ah, my signature "A-for-effort" approach. It's like pretending to pick up the pace at a pedestrian crosswalk to show the driver I'm at least trying. Sure, the driver has to wait for me anyway, but we both feel a little better about the inconvenience and carry on with the day. I safely cross the street, he goes home to his empty apartment and ignores text messages from his ex-wife about being a bad father. We all win.

The hollowed impact of my black suede heels against the floor broke the dead silence as the panel waited for me with warm smiles. All three sides of the meeting room were covered from ceiling to floor in thick high-rise glass, letting in that glorious natural light. Glorious! I kept my cool and rapidly scanned the room as I made my way to the table.

Across a long table sat the reviewers, two men and a woman. I placed my shoulder bag and notebook on the table and scooted it over to the right. In an effort to gracefully sit, I plopped. The chair was lower than I thought. Fucking fuck! In midst of my struggles, one of the reviewers greeted me.

"Hope you found the place alright. Was the traffic bad?"

Traffic's always fucking bad in LA, I thought to myself. Just a little less than half an hour ago, I was screaming at the GPS on my phone because no, I didn't want to take side streets. And of course, I promptly stopped all screaming and dropped the phone onto my lap as a police cruiser whizzed past me. "No, not at all. I was pretty lucky this morning."

"Good--great! I'm Dylan." Guy on the left, Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon. Okay. How does he spell it? D-I-L-L-O-N? I imagined a slew of misspelled name tags on gifts from acquaintances while shaking the second guy's hand, or at least tried to. The table was so long, we could barely reach over to meet halfway. I couldn't hear his name over the clamor of my thoughts.

"--and this is Laurie." I took the woman's hand in a firm grip like I had with the other two. Her skin was soft, her grip was gentle, and Jesus, I needed better hand lotion.

"So nice to meet all of you." I flashed my toothy smile and squinted my eyes to really sell it.

"Would you like some water or coffee? We've also got Pellegrino, Vitamin Water, green juice..."

The view behind them was absolutely breathtaking. I could almost see across the street into the other high-rise, where one corporate employee sat staring at his computer screen in an office suite. My eyes darted back over to the panel as they adjusted into their seats and shuffled their paperwork.

"Water would be great, thank you."

Within seconds, Guy #2 magically produced a miniature Fiji water bottle and slid it across the table. It stopped barely within my grasp, so I bent my torso across the table's surface to quickly snag it, accidentally flashing a small bit of my otherwise-concealed cleavage to him. Like a pro, his gaze shifted back over to his colleagues as he pulled out his tablet.

"So, we called you over here today because we really like your samples." Laurie sifted through what I could only assume to be my written work. "Despite them not being formal pieces or anything, I found some of the concepts you developed quite fascinating. And I think we can all agree on that."

Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon and Guy #2 nodded in agreement. In the back of my mind, reggae music started up to the rhythm of their bobbing heads.

"Thank you."

"Right," Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon cleared his throat and leaned far back into his chair, crossing his right foot over his left leg. "I know we talked over email about you possibly compiling a list of pitches we can either translate into a TV show, or web series. Maybe even a short film, since we recently signed on another director who specializes in shorts."

"And maybe we can see this first meeting as a test run," Laurie added. "If the pitches are solid, we'd like to possibly meet with you on a more regular basis. We'll have you sign a few contracts, a non-disclosure agreement, all that fun stuff."

I was half-listening and still smiling. Threw in the occasional nod to acknowledge their thoughts. "That sounds great. I'd love to become involved."

"Excellent," Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon clapped his hands together and leaned forward. "What do you have for us?"

"Yes..." I grabbed my notebook and opened it to the first page. On it is a neatly, handwritten list of pitches translated from last night's scribbles on eco-friendly napkins and the stationary paper I got on my doorstep from my local real estate agent.

"Okay, well..." I cleared my throat and did my best to not sound like I rehearsed. But I totally rehearsed. "With the release of the seventh installment of Star Wars a couple of months ago, there was a huge following and growing fanbase with Kylo Ren..."

I looked up. No objections yet. The three of them sat waiting and nodding.

"...One of the things that popularized him is his depth as a character. He's got so many unknowns, but there's still an existing potential for change and redemp--"

"Wait," Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon held up a hand. "What genre were you thinking for this one?"

"Well, I originally didn't know that the pitches were limited to only television and web mediums. I thought Kylo's complexities could be expressed in a collection of beautiful poetry. You know, his inner conflicts...in the form of literary art..." I trailed off and waited for their reactions.

Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon tried to exchange a glance with Laurie but she was too busy jotting down notes. Guy #2 just sat there. I started to suspect that Guy #2 was there as a seat warmer. Either that or moral support.

A startling screech dragged across the glass window to the left of me. Outside, a window cleaner on a suspended scaffold pulled an oversized squeegee down over the soapy solution. The reviewers paid no attention to it, so I kept going.

"I mean, if this isn't something you think that would be of substance, that's fine. It's only one idea out of a handful more I've brough--"

"Sure, let's hear them!" Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon became interested once again.

"It's still a variation of the same Star Wars followup. Is that oka--"

"Yeah, go for it."

I panicked. I didn't have anything, or at least anything they seemed into. Without thinking, I opened my mouth and words just came out. "Kylo...Ren...ovations."

Both Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon and Laurie leaned forward. "Yes?"

"Well, just a depiction of him renovating his home outside of the film's plot. He's a temperamental guy. Dark, brooding and feels misunderstood. Quick to anger and react. You can use it as a basis for a short. It'll be funny. Focus on the mishaps...throw in his personality--"

"Love it. Great, okay. Wow. So, we're actually late to another meeting and we hate to rush you out, but we'll be in touch?" Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon stood up from his chair and stretched. The other two looked up in surprise, but slowly followed suit. Guy #2 put down his tablet to help Laurie pack up her notes.

Without saying anything to the three, I smiled, collected my things and walked out. This time, their conversational chatter masked the impact of my suede heels. I threw the notebook into my shoulder bag and dug around for the parking stub as I made my way to the front desk.

"Oooh, our office suite doesn't validate parking," the office assistant scrunched his face apologetically. "I'm sorry. I know it's expensive to park here, too. Dylan didn't tell you?"

"Really?" I paused in disbelief. "Fuck, man."

"I'm sorry, what was that?"

"Fuck, man." I pivoted and made a beeline to the elevator, holding my breath until the doors completely shut behind me. My phone vibrated with an email notification. The elevator glided down floors 15, 14, and 13 as I skimmed it.

Love the second idea - will use. Not sure about future involvement but we'll be in touch. - D

They're not going to pay me. They're not going to. I know it. It was a bullshit idea made on the spot and I ran with it. Weeks of researching use of literary rhetoric in poetry and composition all sitting uncomfortably in my bag with a parking stub worth a $35 fee.

I wanted to break down and cry. Not because this morning didn't turn out as expected, and not because Dylan/Dyllan/Dillon was an interrupting piece of shit dick. He had been signing off his emails with a D, and it's been killing me because I still don't know how he spelled his name. How else am I going to purposely misspell it when I send him a thank you response?

Floors 8, 7, 6. The silver lining in all of this was that I took a mental snapshot of Guy #2 and bookmarked it later for masturbatory purposes. Floors 3, 2, 1...the elevator calmly dinged and its doors parted. I walked out into the parking structure feeling better. A lot better. 

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Draft from February 26, 2016:

I don't really have a gut, but the band of my tightly cinched high-waisted jeans is making whatever it can out of me. There's something itching me right smack dab in the center of my sternum. I do my best to not scratch it. I uncross my legs and alternate to the other leg, blankly staring at the clock. Less than an hour before I have to head into a night lecture. My mind fast forwards through class and resumes playing the imaginary footage of my life when I'm on the road, haphazardly plugging my phone in to blast music through my blown-out speakers. Note to self: I need new car speakers.

My mood is at an all-time low. Maybe it's the aged sharp cheddar I tried to pair with my moscato wine Monday night, or the melatonin I've been night capping. Whatever it is, this week has been a rough relapse in my depression. Not even the cat collector app on my phone can save me. I fill their cyber food bowls and switch out their toys like a distracted, broken-hearted mother trying to function around her kids.